Standing in that grocery aisle, going about my chores. It hits me so strongly, I must take a moment to compose myself again. And then the absurdity of it all comes as a second wave crashing and all I can do is laugh. Laugh at how ridiculous it is to be human. But... sometimes that laugh never comes and instead an aching numbness is all thats left. A numbness so strong I can't even feel a touch. I can’t even care about death or pain because, in the end, it is meaningless.